Speaking, Conversations & Resources

What if the thing you’re afraid disqualifies you is something you can bring to God?

Speaking, Conversations & Resources

You can spend years loving God, serving people, and being responsible—and still quietly wonder whether the gospel reaches all the way into the part of you that feels disqualified.

The doubts. The disappointment. The awkward space of feeling like you’re not good enough, but you’re not bad enough either.

I know that place. So well. It’s awful.

I felt like I was too much for a big encounter story with God, but also too little for a relationship with Him. Didn’t I know better already?

I tried to help people, share what was actually working, but all while not making eye contact with the truth. Just in case.

Eventually, my doubts grew too big to avoid the question I was terrified of hearing answered:

If I approach God, will He reject me?

My faith journey has looked more like The Velveteen Rabbit than a shiny Christian walk. And it has made me willing to have the conversations we sometimes avoid about identity.

I don’t want to avoid these conversations anymore. These are the conversations we need to have. We need space to name what we’ve been afraid to ask. To look at what we believe about ourselves when we stop covering up.